Feeling a little wound up so I thought let it out on here before it zaps all my energy and I don’t finish my work.



My parents treated all the kids in the family as their own, and still do although a lot of us are much older. My sisters and I never really got the same treatment from other adult family members, but that was ok. Growing up we’ve been pretty lucky.

Still family politics has evidently got in the way of my relationship with my cousins, and in all honestly the root of the problem is that the adults in the family didn’t always get on. So naturally, its affected us kids.

Jealousy. So many jealous aunties I don’t know where to begin. Always so fake. Always comparing. Pretending they like you when really they’re just making little mental notes of how their kids can outdo you. Though I really have no idea what they could be jealous of, this always confused me. 

In the Asian community there’s a lot of emphasis on the importance of family. I wish things were different but I’ve realised it’s all just a show. I hope things are different for my kids, but the only way that will happen is if I learn to put every thing aside so my relationships don’t affect theirs. 

It’s not much different from some “friendships” really. When you do anything for someone and they don’t give much thought to you. I shouldn’t let it bother me much. I guess it’s just when I see family, which is quite regularly, I can’t help but think of what it should be like. 

No point waiting until something “bad” happens to start making an effort to fulfil the family role you have. 

Never really had older sibling figures in my life, had plenty of older cousins there but they don’t care. Though I’m not the eldest out of the kids, I try and be there for all my little sisters, brothers, nephews and nieces. The way that I wished someone was there for me. I’m not around all the time, but when I see them I make sure they understand I’m happy to help whenever. Kids are so much easier.

I just need to focus on the adults and cousins my generation. And not let it bother me as much. Maybe focus less and just let it be. I have plenty of other great people in my life, who I can turn to for guidance.

I’m not a people pleaser, I never have been. This doesn’t mean that we can’t get along. It just means that I’m not going to pretend, and if need be I will do the right thing or what I want as long as it doesn’t harm you, regardless of what the rest of you think.

I guess what I’m trying to say is.

I’m not gonna sit and plan a hen do for my wedding which is apparently going to be the first out of us when the majority of the family don’t give a crap. 


Woman Photographs Herself Receiving Strange Looks in Public

“I now reverse the gaze and record their reactions to me while I perform mundane tasks in public spaces. I seek out spaces that are visually interesting and geographically diverse. I try to place myself in compositions that contain feminine icons or advertisements. Otherwise, I position myself and the camera in a pool of people…and wait.

The images capture the gazer in a microsecond moment where they, for unknowable reasons, have a look on their face that questions my presence. Whether they are questioning my position in front of the lens or questioning my body size, the gazer appears to be visually troubled that I am in front of them.”

Photographer: Haley Morris-Cafiero

Project: Wait Watchers 


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For Momma

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Anonymous asked: so inspiring!!!!!! your old pal Nabeeha XXXX

Awh I don’t know how, but I’m glad you can take something good. I miss you! Sorry been writing essays. But we shall Skype soon my love. xxx


This programme explores the rituals through which the Sikh Vaisakhi festival is celebrated today, and examines how Vaisakhi’s themes - tolerance, equality, humility, dignity and an active concern for others - impact the daily lives of Sikhs.

With contributions from a number of eminent Sikh historians and religious experts, this film provides an entertaining, informative and highly accessible introduction to the Sikh religion’s annual festival.

Happy Vaisakhi - April 14 2014!

Watch Part 2 here

Great video

To all my fellow sisters, please watch from 9mins30s to 10mins45s

Less than 2 minutes of your time.




So I guess I should stop worrying about my essays.

So the blade said to the water: I can see that by stirring you I will give you my natural power of iron :solidity. What will you give me ? Water said to the blade: I will fill your sharp edge and stability with a sublime form of humility which will be sweet and blissful. Whoever drinks me shall be a mix of faith and solidity. The hallowed bowl spoke. He said ” well I suppose I must add to these qualities too - I provide the body vessel from which these human qualities will emerge. I will be the kindness and compassion that doesn’t let any spirituality fall out. Hearing this the hand spoke. I shall be the master who gives you all these gifts and I am worthy of this task for I have, and will sacrifice everything for those who drink from me. Dhan Guru Gobind Singh Maharaj - Amrit shakko ; singh singhnia sajjo ; rehit rakho ; bani parrho.

Other People


One of the keys to happiness is not having any expectations at all when it comes to other people. They do as they please and not as you wish. They will let you down at some point. Now, I know this sounds very cynical and I don’t mean to suggest that people are bad or intentionally hurtful. Of course some are but most are not. No, my point is that if you have no expectations you will not be hurt. If they don’t let you down wonderful! There is no reason to be morose or negative about this. You will feel bad if your best friend forgets your birthday because you have expectations. If you just brush it off, allow her to apologize then you will not have suffered.

This is non-attachment as it applies to human relationships. 







so beautiful

Omg :’) wow

Great Picture. Though I can’t help but think we’re still stuck in the mindset that women should look a certain way, and that’s what makes them beautiful. Good looks fade. But a good heart keeps you beautiful forever.





so beautiful

Omg :’) wow

Great Picture. Though I can’t help but think we’re still stuck in the mindset that women should look a certain way, and that’s what makes them beautiful. Good looks fade. But a good heart keeps you beautiful forever.

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So called ‘late-bloomers’ get a bad rap. Sometimes the people with the greatest potential often take the longest to find their path because their sensitivity is a double edged sword- it lives at the heart of their brilliance, but it also makes them more susceptible to life’s pains. Good thing we aren’t being penalized for handing in our purpose late. The soul doesn’t know a thing about deadlines.

Jeff Brown  (via thatkindofwoman)

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Todee, Fifth Mehl: O True Guru, I have come to Your Sanctuary. Grant me the peace and glory of the Lord’s Name, and remove my anxiety. ||1||Pause|| I cannot see any other place of shelter; I have grown weary, and collapsed at Your door. Please ignore my account; only then may I be saved. I am worthless - please, save me! ||1|| You are always forgiving, and always merciful; You give support to all. Slave Nanak follows the Path of the Saints; save him, O Lord, this time. ||2||4||9||

Ah a beautiful sunrise this morning. A year ago today I was blessed with Amrit.

I remember I jumped out of bed for Amrit Vela, I was so excited. I managed to find my Biji’s old kirpan and kanga, which I wore for the first time. And I put my kershera on for the first time as well, I ain’t even gonna tell you how tricky that business was…

And then for weeks afterwards, I was living in a sort of bubble, I would find myself waking up reciting lines of Gurbani I never thought I knew. Some say the Amrit Sanchar ceremony is just one big ritual, but there’s definitely more to it, it had this strange and wonderful affect on me. I most definitely was not perfect, and still I am not. But receiving that Amrit has pushed me to always strive forwards and grow in my Sikhi. I hope that doesn’t stop.

My family always say, there’s no point looking like a Gursikh if I’m not playing the part. It’s not just about doing all your paath, you have to be a kind, good person as well. I am determined to be like this.

Waking up has been the hardest part for me. Especially when I was in York and in the winter months. It was so cold. Getting out of bed is literally the hardest part, but once you’ve done that, it’s smooth sailing! I found the rest of my day is so peaceful, even if something happens which I would have found bad once upon a time, I no longer find bad.  And if I have a little nap after a.v, I can just feel Vaheguru vibrating through my being, sinking into my dreams.

I remember the first day I missed a.v :( I swear I didn’t hear my alarm. I felt rubbish. But it’s really important that you carry on, and don’t let it get to you. Don’t give up! Use it as motivation to get up the next day. And never let your mind tell you your too tired. Don’t fall for that trap. I did, 3 times. Not good my friend.

Still, there are many more steps to take.

One thing I do know is, once you make Vaheguru the centre of your life, EVERYTHING falls in to place. 


The reasons behind people’s favourite numbers in the metro this morning.


The reasons behind people’s favourite numbers in the metro this morning.